Weird Spaces

I've been in a weird head space lately. And when I say weird, I mean me - I'm weird. My head is weird. My mind is all over the place. I've learned to accept that. It's actually normal for me. I'm at a point where I know I need to take a leap but the direction I'm going has no pavement yet. Not even an outline to what direction, or some grass to show signs of life. (Because apparently I'm the only one on this place I've created).

In my mind I'm starting from scratch. I'm the woman with a plan, always. I have to know where I'm going, and from there I know what it will look like and what I need to do. I've always been into school and my next step was going back to school for another degree. The details of why aren't important right now, because it's the where that has become my yellow brick road to self-reflection.

I'm not going there right now, "there" being school. So now it's about where that would it even lead me. Is that what I really need/want to make me happy or was that another "next step" in my life because that's what I thought I wanted. Or what was expected of me? Being in the real world has taught me many things, one of them being that experience is our best teacher. When I was in school I was so eager to finish and experience. Now that I've been out for awhile I've wanted to go back because that seemed the most logical thing to do. Yet it's funny how much I have forgotten how being in a class just made me want to be out in the real world even more anyway!

What I've discovered is that I crave to learn, that's all. I love learning new things. I love being exposed to how things work, to learn new skills, to experience people in all of their elements. And what I learn, I love to teach. I love to inspire. I love to help people discover the hidden gems within themselves that they so easily tossed away, because life. Life teaches us all we need to know. We can read books, we can memorize steps, but ultimately we create the pavement on which we walk on. No one else.

So this is a post about I don't know what...yet. It's the semi-colon in my life, because I'm not done yet, but I know there is more coming. I know that I have to create something new in order to gain new perspective. Because the road block on one road isn't the end to all roads. It just means it looks different. Like maybe a circle, triangle, or shit, even an octagon. Its shape is our own and never one-sided.

I hope that if you are at the semi-colon in your life that you know there is more to come, even if you can't even finish out the sentence just yet!